The Untold Stories

Yes, 1 more month to thesis submission. I was so stressed the other night. I realised I could masturbate twice with a few hours apart. I watched porn when I was stressed. And then I felt more stressed, plus a bit of guilt, that the time spent on porn and masturbations could have been used on writing my thesis. The hardest part about writing a thesis, is not really about writing, but the planning, the structuring before actual writing could take place. I breathed a sigh of relief yesterday after seeing my supervisor, as she seemed to like my way of structuring the literature review. I was quite stressed before seeing her. Lots of what-if questions over my mind. What if she said it's not 'quite' right (notice the use of quite, because even a small hiccup now can drive me crazy, as I am running out of time!). So, she 'approved' it, and asked me to write them down. I am quite afraid of writing to be honest. Academic writing, and especially when it's forming ...

This is going to be another rather depressing post. Don't continue to read it if you are already stressed/depressed. . Also, as I want to use this blog to record about things that I have been through/ experienced, I am honest about my thoughts/feelings/opinions/etc. I am not trying to make things look polished here so you may find this space to be unattractive or even disgusting (coz I am going to talk about my butt today). Yesterday started well. It was very warm and sunny when I woke up. I bought some breakfast and went to the balcony to get some sun. As I had nothing planned for the day, I decided to go to the gym. Came home, wasted a bit of time and went to church in the evening. Not long into the service, my left eye started to feel itchy. I am usually very careful with hygiene and I don't know why it happened. The first thing I did when I came home was to check my eye. It wasn't very red, probably a little. I was so worried that it's a symptom of hiv infec...

Had a Brazilian wax done yesterday.  Just thought of putting it here as it's quite an experience, perhaps when I look back at this space five years from now I may judge myself.  Probably got influenced by porns, especially the western ones. My pubic area is quite hairy. Not sure if my ex ever made any comments about it.  As I hadn't had any waxing experience, I initially just wanted him to wax the butt (including the area surrounding the hole). But It really wasn't as painful as I thought.   So I asked him to also do my front. The part between the base of the dick and the ball was the most painful part. But still bearable. I didn't scream or moan or cry. Just sweated quite a bit.  And if you're curious, no, he's not my type and i didn't have an erection.  The challenge for the next few days would be to keep the area pimple free. Apparently many people would get pimples after waxing because bacteria could grow in the pores.  Have started using anti bact...