The Untold Stories

1) I went shopping yesterday. Bought a pair of Jeans and a t-shirt from Gap. 20% off for purchases of two items or more. I think i have lost patience or rather the passion for shopping for clothes. When I was younger, in primary school, I would lay my t-shirt and my pants on the bed to see if they were matching. I remember one day when my family decided to go to Malacca to shop, I found out that my favourite pair of pants was still in the laundry basket. I was really upset, and I cried. And I started to whine about how pathetic my life was as I did not even have enough pairs of decent pants to wear out too. (I think I behaved like a drama queen back then) Anyway, my parents successfully convinced me to go. And as soon as we got there, the priority was to get me pants. As I grew older, I cared less about the clothes that I put on. I would normally go for the clothes that have just been washed and stuffed back into the wardrobe because they are the most reachable and visible. As a re...

I was actually more than half way through writing a post, more than a week ago, but I couldn't bring myself to complete it. To keep things short, we broke up numerous times, we tried to get back together. This time, things got out of hand. With the help of a friend, we decided to try to stop contacting each other for 4 weeks. I don't want to dedicate this post to explaining how we got to this point. It would be too long, and too unpleasant to write. Instead, I simply need to pen down how I am feeling right now, and with the things that have been happening recently. Health More than 2 months ago, I started feeling slightly bloated on the left side of my abdomen when I lay down on my bed at night. Initially i thought it had to do with my back. So I went to see the chiropractor. I even got myself a new pillow. He said my butt (pelvic bone) was misaligned and he did some adjustments. The adjustments didn't really work, and he told me he actually couldn't figure ou...

Just a quick update. Went to the city a few hours ago to shop for winter clothing. Winter is looming. These days the mornings can be as cold as 10-13 degrees already. I am a noob when it comes to fashion. Like seriously. Also, I don't really care. This is especially so when I am not dating anyone. I will go out with the same cotton jacket every time. But i make sure it's clean. Being a bit OCD when it comes to hygiene, I wash everything after wearing them once only. The jacket (or hoodie to be precise) that I am wearing was purchased two years ago. I did buy new ones from time to time (a knitted jacket from GAP, a wool jacket from ZARA, a leather one from mum) but I don't really like them because I can't wash them as easily and as frequently as the cotton ones. Hence, the potential pool of jackets that I would buy is severely limited. Anyway, I bought a PUFFER VEST today, (just found out what it's called after I got home from the magazine). I notice...

Ok, just a short post. Sleep wasn't good last night. Had to wake up early (8am) to get ready for the 9.30am meeting with supervisor. Took the cab, still 15 mins late. Bad time management. Had another work meeting at 1pm. Only had less than 10 minutes to gulp down the Beef Donburi. Lasted for 2 hours, and thank God I was able to pay attention. Right now I am feeling groggy from the lack of sleep but I want to finish posting this. I had been wanting to redesign my work space, to allow me to sit ergonomically while working on my computer (laptop). Naughty Prince sent me some guides on how to arrange for an ergonomic work station. But I was having some cash flow problem previously. Now that I have got some $$ on hand, I can't wait but to go on a shopping spree haha! So, you got to visualise this yourself, as I don't have the guide with me, it's all in my mind. The simplest rule is that, (maybe for me) is to keep my elbows close to the sides of my torso. A...

My very first Crocs clogs! Don't judge me.  End of Post.  LOL. So, I got myself my very first pair of Crocs clogs.  Ok, why the need? Because of the suspected case of Athlete's Foot, I want to keep my feet as dry and airy as possible. (Arghh...I hate this AF thing, will have another post about it!)  In order to still look presentable enough on Slippers/Flip Flops/Thongs, I had to shop for something nice and comfortable.  So, I came across this Crocs website. It's got an AU website now, and it provides free delivery for purchases of $50 or more.  I was hesitant about getting myself these 'clogs', so I ended up buying a pair of flip flops from Crocs. I thought, since Crocs' main selling point is comfort, the flip flops it makes shouldn't be too bad after all.  But I was wrong. It cut my feet. You know the inverted 'V' shaped rubber stripes on flip flops? They cut my feet. Not only was it hurting my feet, I was also worrie...

Since young, I've always liked to drink. (Not drinking alcohol!)  I like to eat as well (my grandma gave me the title 'the rat in the house' because I would check the cupboards in the kitchen for 'new arrivals', cookies that she had just bought home for me).  Back to drinking, I guess a good way of putting it is that my parents are thrifty. I don't think we were very poor la, but now come to think of it it's a bit sad haha.  For example, as kids we didn't know there were choices. So breakfast, we had bread because dad would always buy a loaf of Gardenia bread and we would eat it with jams. I liked peanut butter a lot for my bread but my dad would say they were expensive compared to just having fruit jams. But anyway, once in a while, I still succeeded in convincing him to get me peanut butter for breakfast.  So back to being thrifty. So, I have always envied people in the supermarkets who could get whatever they wanted into the shopping ...

For the sake of 'brightening' my blog a bit, hence the title. I will get to the dildo later. Firstly, thank you to those of you who are still following this little space of mine. Thanks for taking interest in my life though most, if not all of you don't know me personally. Thanks for leaving the comments. Managed to get an appointment this afternoon at the sexual health clinic. Zoe, the nurse at this clinic that usually sees me, said that she thought we just met not long ago. Indeed that was the case. So I told her about the risk. I told her I only wanted a test. Had the test. It's been more than 6 weeks. She said she wouldn't be too concerned about it. But anyway she let me had the test. I noticed that the feverish feeling I am having (dry and warm eyes, warm limbs, warm body, body aches, probably mild fever) usually starts in the afternoon. I am researching about this thing 阴虚内热. So it's about the Yin being deficient, making the Yang too high a...

I remember those days when we went out to shopping malls, we would always visit the toys section of the department stores. Because he's so in love with Lego, the Star Wars series especially.  In Australia, Lego always has a at least a few shelves in the toys section. You can either go to K-Mart, Target, Myers, David Jones, Toys R us, etc.  I always felt like the guys in straight relationships, following their girlfriends to try out new clothes. He would always ask me, 'which one do you think is better?', 'Do you think I should get it now since it's on promotion?', 'get one for me la', 'you see this one so special, got this and that'.  To me, honestly, they were all Legos. They looked...well, nice, but I wouldn't buy them coz I was not interested in playing Lego.  The toys section was a must go section if we go out. I was generally fine with it. He knew I wasn't interested so he wouldn't forced me to be around him when...

Called the clinic today for my 23rd day post-PEP result. Thank God, it was negative. Called the pathology just now, and finally the Hep C PCR Qualitative test had been completed and should go back to my GP tomorrow morning. Will be seeing my GP tomorrow. Hope it will be fine. Had a nightmare this morning and woke up with sweat on my forehead. I was afraid that it will be related to HIV symptoms- night sweats. It was 6.30 am but I quickly grabbed my phone and started to search about night sweats. I hope it was just the anxiety and nightmare that caused the sweat. I wasn't sweating profusely though. I hope this wouldn't make me worried to go to bed tonight. I really hope I will be able to let it go. The counsellor I spoke with on Monday said it was a 'trauma' to me. Being a super meticulous person, especially with regard to having protected sex, this incident was something 'beyond my control' and that I am still in shock. It was my mum's birthday yeste...