I remember those days when we went out to shopping malls, we would always visit the toys section of the department stores. Because he's so in love with Lego, the Star Wars series especially.
In Australia, Lego always has a at least a few shelves in the toys section. You can either go to K-Mart, Target, Myers, David Jones, Toys R us, etc.
I always felt like the guys in straight relationships, following their girlfriends to try out new clothes. He would always ask me, 'which one do you think is better?', 'Do you think I should get it now since it's on promotion?', 'get one for me la', 'you see this one so special, got this and that'.
To me, honestly, they were all Legos. They looked...well, nice, but I wouldn't buy them coz I was not interested in playing Lego.
The toys section was a must go section if we go out. I was generally fine with it. He knew I wasn't interested so he wouldn't forced me to be around him when he browsed through the collection. I could wander off to other sections.
I bought him Legos for his birthday last year. It took me a few hours literally, to choose which ones to buy him.
I regretted for not paying attention while he talked about and showed me his purchases. I just couldn't be sure which ones he had already. So I sent some 'hints' to him while I was deciding which ones to buy.
He likes mini figures more than the space ships. And every set comes with different mini figures. I sent him some pictures of mini figures and asked if those were new.
Finally, I made my decision based partly on the (c) copyright years printed on the boxes! I would only choose those with (c) 2012 (since it was last year).
Anyway, I got him the wrong presents!
I bought him something that he already had. I failed so badly right!!
Yesterday, after the blood test, I was near a shopping mall. So I went in, went to Toys R Us and bought a box of Lego Star Wars.
I wanted to buy him something. I think he hates me. I thought if I buy him something he likes, he may hate me less?
I know nothing is sufficient for him to love me again or to come back to me. I actually don't have a lot of spare cash on hand at the moment, but i just wanted to buy him something he likes.
Last night, I thought, why not just assemble the thing instead of giving him the raw set.
On one hand, I want to 'impress him' a bit. Coz in the past, even with a mini figure, I couldn't get it right, he would need to show me how, yes, even for a mini figure! On the other hand, I wan to try to experience things he does, to feel him.
It's actually quite intimidating. With all the tiny pieces. I was so afraid of losing even one piece.
The instructions booklet was very helpful. It was thick!
Mission accomplished! It took me 2 hours to make this.
It's moveable. Look at the 'belt', it was made up of 60 little plastic pieces. I had to join them to form the belt.
It was fun. And there's this sense of achievement. But I got to say that it's a bit tiring. haha.
I dun know what to do next. Should I send this off to him?
What do you think he will do? Get pissed? and dump it straight away?
Keep it to yourself so that someday you will think of those sweet memories and moments spent with him. :)
ReplyDeleteBut then how am i going to convey to him that I miss him? Though he may not care
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