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First dildo experience

For the sake of 'brightening' my blog a bit, hence the title.

I will get to the dildo later.

Firstly, thank you to those of you who are still following this little space of mine. Thanks for taking interest in my life though most, if not all of you don't know me personally.

Thanks for leaving the comments.

Managed to get an appointment this afternoon at the sexual health clinic. Zoe, the nurse at this clinic that usually sees me, said that she thought we just met not long ago. Indeed that was the case.

So I told her about the risk. I told her I only wanted a test. Had the test. It's been more than 6 weeks.

She said she wouldn't be too concerned about it. But anyway she let me had the test.

I noticed that the feverish feeling I am having (dry and warm eyes, warm limbs, warm body, body aches, probably mild fever) usually starts in the afternoon.

I am researching about this thing 阴虚内热. So it's about the Yin being deficient, making the Yang too high and hence the 'internal heat'.

Hopefully all these are just something minor.

Had a late lunch in the city.

So recently, these few days, I have been watching quite a lot of porn. And viewing pictures of hot guys on Jack'D made me even hornier.

So I decided to get myself a dildo. Just in case, I have the desire to get fxxxed.

Went to this adult toys store, a kinda famous one. It was very clean and organised.

It felt a bit like supermarket actually. The staffs there, all females looked 'calm' when I walked into the store. They were quite good at not making me feel uncomfortable. Just a 'hi' then I was left alone.

I was hoping to get a realistic dildo but they didn't have it. So I got myself probably the smallest dildo they have there. The other dildos were just so huge, so long and thick that I think would be impossible for me to use without injuring myself.

It's really expensive though. It's $120. Got to get my own lube some more. What to do? I really need this...hahahah

Tried using it just now. Was ok la. Not as good as I expected it to be. Probably I dun like bottoming anymore. Probably it was still too big for me? Or have I come to the point where sex is only enjoyable with someone I truly like?

$120....could have been spent in a better way?

Do you all have a dildo too? Never seen/visited such toys stores in Malaysia though.

Comments

  1. hahahaha. that's a better change =)

    I dont have one though I did think of getting one. Went to an adult store at sg wang last time. Pretty limited selection. Really need to get one soon cos it's getting tighter and get easily bleed when I finger

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    1. hahaha...need one from aussie? can courier to you but the size might be bigger lol

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