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I was actually more than half way through writing a post, more than a week ago, but I couldn't bring myself to complete it.

To keep things short, we broke up numerous times, we tried to get back together.

This time, things got out of hand. With the help of a friend, we decided to try to stop contacting each other for 4 weeks.

I don't want to dedicate this post to explaining how we got to this point. It would be too long, and too unpleasant to write. Instead, I simply need to pen down how I am feeling right now, and with the things that have been happening recently.

Health

More than 2 months ago, I started feeling slightly bloated on the left side of my abdomen when I lay down on my bed at night. Initially i thought it had to do with my back. So I went to see the chiropractor. I even got myself a new pillow. He said my butt (pelvic bone) was misaligned and he did some adjustments. The adjustments didn't really work, and he told me he actually couldn't figure out what's wrong too. So, to rule out some of the worst possible causes, I had some x-rays done. Still, nothing major.

I went to see my GP. The x-ray that was done showed mild faecal retention. The GP said it could be shit getting trapped in the colon, so she asked me to try taking some fibre supplements before proceeding to more thorough checks. Didn't work. Went back to the GP and got referred to a gastroenterologist.

Gastroenterologist makes a lot of money seriously. The consultation took less than 15 mins. And it costed $220 ($128 from the government and the rest from me). The 'schedule fee' is 150, so he must be quite popular for him to be charging this rate. For the last three days, after I defecated, I had to scoop the shit out from the toilet bowl and put it into the jars. Returned the shit samples to the clinic today. Will have to do a ultrasound of the upper abdomen on Thursday. No food AND water for 8 hours before the appointment.

Work

It's been almost 3 weeks since I finished my annual progress review. As part of the review, I had to present to the Discipline. It went really really well. Received lots and lots of compliments that day for the presentation.

Submitted my final piece of coursework assignment for the PhD program last week.

Had a chat with the Head and he seemed interested in talking about my project with me, and he recommended some books.

Meeting my supervisor this week. Hopefully she would not set too much work for me. Hopefully i could just ease into the summer holidays.

Domestic affairs

I have been cooking dinner. I have pretty much not cooked anything this year. Cooking dinner saves me $8/meal. So if I cook all my dinners for one month, I could save $240 a month.

I have also been actively searching for a place to move to. But it's really hard to find a better place that is within the budget.

I finally got myself a pair of sunglasses. Coz I m short-sighted, and prescription sunglasses are expensive ($400-500 a pair for me), I had been putting off the purchase, until now! I seriously hated it when we went out in the afternoon, and Jay said "look! did you see that plane? do you know which airline it is?" How could i fxcking see? Unlike Jay, I didn't even have the shades. I had to squint. So not sensitive right?! But anyway, I am going to look cool very soon.

I have also resumed gym. Just the treadmill for now. Need to burn more fats before year end.

And oh, I am really tempted to buy the Canon G7X. It's about $600. It's got NFC and Wifi, and most importantly the reviews are all very good. Summer holidays is coming and very soon chinese new year. My canon S90 is still functional, but it's already almost 6 years old.

Personal development

Actually, the reason I am writing this post, is that I am actually feeling a bit lost. I don't know what I am doing.

I watched lots of porn yesterday. And I masturbated. And I chatted briefly with some people on the app. And I actually for the first time (in OZ at least), went to watch a movie myself last night!

I am bored. I am lonely. I could have read more nutritious or academic stuff, but I couldn't concentrate. Have been sleeping late. And sleep hasn't been good.

The weekend just disappeared like that.

Comments

  1. My bf told me you left a comment on his post from 10 years ago!

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    1. I didn't know your bf has a blog until like 2 days ago.

      The moment I saw the dates on which the posts were published I knew I found something precious to read. Almost like doing archival research lol. It's also comparably more straight to the point, unlike yours, the crab thing is almost hidden.

      Anyway, I am sure that blog is a chest of priceless memories for you :)

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    2. I wasn't straight to the point enough on that? Haha. I did delete a few sentences to make it more PG13.

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