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Some updates...

Called the clinic today for my 23rd day post-PEP result. Thank God, it was negative.

Called the pathology just now, and finally the Hep C PCR Qualitative test had been completed and should go back to my GP tomorrow morning. Will be seeing my GP tomorrow. Hope it will be fine.

Had a nightmare this morning and woke up with sweat on my forehead. I was afraid that it will be related to HIV symptoms- night sweats. It was 6.30 am but I quickly grabbed my phone and started to search about night sweats. I hope it was just the anxiety and nightmare that caused the sweat. I wasn't sweating profusely though. I hope this wouldn't make me worried to go to bed tonight.

I really hope I will be able to let it go. The counsellor I spoke with on Monday said it was a 'trauma' to me. Being a super meticulous person, especially with regard to having protected sex, this incident was something 'beyond my control' and that I am still in shock.

It was my mum's birthday yesterday but I didn't want to turn on the Skype because I didn't want my family to ask how I was doing. This morning, I received a whatsapp message from mum and she asked me not to worry about anything and let God be my shepherd, quoting Psalm 23. I opened up the bible and looked at Psalm 23. Although I didn't feel that it relates to me so well, I am still feeling blessed that my family cares so much about me.

Went to the city today to buy a pair of new shoes because the one I was wearing (bought by my mum from Taiwan) has become so old now. I like the designs of Lacoste and Fred Perry. Went to the first shop, tried one by Lacoste and it costs $140. I was prepared to buy but the size was not really right for me. So I went to the Fred Perry shop and I guess I was lucky as they were having a 20% storewide discount. And I got myself this at only $67.50. So cheap!


Also, last night I was reading Strictly Gay and was really touched by his love towards his family, to his mother especially. I always regard those who care for their families highly. And it's definitely an important attribute to have, if I am looking for a boyfriend. I also noticed that a lot of gays that I know are the ones that take care of their parents while their siblings are less involved. 






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