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End of PEP

So this morning I took the last pill. The past 28 days were not easy to go by. With assignments, health, and relationship issues, it was tough, very tough. I can only thank God for His guidance and comfort, and David, and some other friends for their willingness to listen.

Still feeling tired today. Still found it hard to fall asleep last night even though I went for a 30 mins jog at the gym. Woke up late, had breakfast and medicine, and slept again. Did just very little assignment, had a house meeting at my hostel, and felt tired and was resting on my bed. Didn't feel like going to church.

Hx messaged me and asked if I was alright (He's a gay friend that I just knew before this incident started and we had only met once). Anyway, we decided to meet up for dinner. Went for coffee after dinner just now, and I told him, finally. Hopefully this will explain why I wasn't being upbeat and hasn't asked him out for dinner since we first met.

Still, I felt like talking to KK after the coffee. (KK is a gay friend of mine, in his late 40s now that I have known for almost 2 years, I am also a friend of his partners). Talking to KK is always good. He's matured and wise, and I trust him, and I can feel that he is very sincere.

Just got home. It's really windy and cold here tonight. Took a cab as I didn't want to wait for the bus. Just sent an email to my lecturer asking if I could meet him tomorrow or on Tuesday. I think I need to let him know about my situation, not in detail, but I need to let him know that I am feeling tired and probably am going to ask him to give me some extension for my assignments.

First blood test after PEP will be on 11th June.

Tomorrow is my birthday. Although I have always told my parents, friends that birthday means nothing to me, I hope it will be a good day tomorrow. Not expecting presents or surprises, but just pray that it will be an efficient day for me to more work for my assignment.

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  1. Da Closet GuyJune 3, 2013 at 8:12 PM

    Happy Birthday! Happy Birthday! Happy Birthday!! (:

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  2. CalvinJune 4, 2013 at 4:26 PM

    Happy belated birthday, Bryan! May your wish comes true and stay strong. Take good care of yourself.

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  3. SharksJune 6, 2013 at 1:24 AM

    Opps, your birthday is on 3rd June? I think we were born same day, hahaha! But I am older >.< Happy birthday! And I know you are strong!

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    1. untold stories June 6, 2013 at 4:01 PM

      Such a coincidence! Hope you had a lovely birthday this year:)

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