I Will Not Forget You

'Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you.' (Isaiah 49:15)

Just received this bible verse from my mum on whatsapp. Yes, 'I' most probably means God in that context, but to me, I feel that it's a way my mum is telling me that I'm her in her thoughts.

I guess my parents and aunt must be worried about me recently, especially so as they don't know exactly what I'm facing. But there's no way I could let them know, and I only hope I will turn out fine, when I get the test results in the next few weeks.

Went to my GP yesterday, and she told me that my Hep C Qualitative PCR was negative. She said she called the pathology and got the result but it hasn't been sent to her electronically yet and she promised she will post a copy to me once she got it. My 23rd day post-PEP test was negative. And I've booked myself a test next Monday, which will be 29th day post-PEP.

Hope I can let this incident go. I need to regain focus on my studies.

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