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Don't Know What to Write

Don't know what to write, as I don't know what I'm currently thinking and What I should be thinking.

Health
Tested negative last Tuesday, which was about a week post PEP. My next test is scheduled on Tuesday.

Still not feeling very well, sweaty palms, anxiety, lymph nodes on neck still swollen, still having mild sore throat.

Went to see a Chinese doctor last week, got some herbs to drink. I know I wouldn't be able to relax my mind fully until at least 4 weeks post PEP.

Trying hard to cheer myself up. But don't really feel like going to friends. I have a feeling that I am burdening them with my negative emotions.

Relationship
Jeff, the Chinese guy that I dated, came again on Friday night. I had a feeling that he might be a boring person like me as he didn't have plans, didn't know where to bring me and we ended up having tea and chit chat at the same restaurant.

Did something stupid. I created a Jack'D account on my old phone, pretending to be a good looking guy. Contacted my ex, I knew he likes this type of guys. We exchanged a few msgs, but he ended up knowing that it was me. I don't know how. Maybe his friend saw my profile and the fake profile being so close to each other.

Book
Started reading this book. 'Being Gay, Being Christian'. http://books.google.com.au/books/about/Being_Gay_Being_Christian.html?id=nVmWJKYfsAIC

Got it from Google Play for about AUD 7.

It's written by a Christian psychologist. The foreword was written by the former High Court Judge, Michael Kirby. Justice Kirby is a very well-known figure in Australia. A very outstanding judge. Law students would have read many of his judgments throughout their studies. Most importantly, he's Out. He's a devout Christian.

Even if you are not Christian, I urge you to read too. It explores the issue of gay and lesbian from the scientific perspective too.


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  1. CYJune 18, 2013 at 1:00 PM

    Thank goodness for the PEP drug seriously, don't get why they don't promote it more back home in Malaysia. Was so ignorant about HIV and STI related materials until I went overseas to be honest.

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    1. untold stories June 18, 2013 at 6:13 PM

      Yes, I didn't hear anything about PEP when I was in Malaysia. And in Singapore, a few clinics are charging extremely high prices for STD/HIV tests, e.g. SHIM clinic, Dr Tan & Partners.

      I'm very glad that I am in Australia. And I hope more gays will be educated about the latest tests and PEP. Perhaps you can write something on this topic too so more people will be aware of it?

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  2. soul232June 18, 2013 at 2:41 PM

    never feel that way. A friend is there for a reason. they want to help as long u allow them to

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  3. untold stories June 18, 2013 at 6:14 PM

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