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Eyes, haircut and butt.

This is going to be another rather depressing post. Don't continue to read it if you are already stressed/depressed. .

Also, as I want to use this blog to record about things that I have been through/ experienced, I am honest about my thoughts/feelings/opinions/etc. I am not trying to make things look polished here so you may find this space to be unattractive or even disgusting (coz I am going to talk about my butt today).

Yesterday started well. It was very warm and sunny when I woke up. I bought some breakfast and went to the balcony to get some sun.

As I had nothing planned for the day, I decided to go to the gym. Came home, wasted a bit of time and went to church in the evening.

Not long into the service, my left eye started to feel itchy. I am usually very careful with hygiene and I don't know why it happened. The first thing I did when I came home was to check my eye. It wasn't very red, probably a little. I was so worried that it's a symptom of hiv infection. I quickly went out to buy an eye drop.

It's better now I guess. I could still feel a bit of itch or irritation until this afternoon but it's ok right now.

I can only hope that it's because of the stress/worries/whatever unknown reasons.

Went for a haircut today. It's the Japanese hair salon that I have been visiting since few months ago. Unfortunately it's bad. He cut my hair too short and luckily I got a cap to put on on the way home. I will still go this salon I guess, but probably not this hairdresser anymore.

Talking about my butt, I noticed a tiny bump, about 2cm away from my butt hole. I felt it as I was showering. And I spent about thirty mins just now trying to take a pic of it. Yes, given the location, it's very hard to examine carefully without the use of a camera and a mirror.

Could it be a wart? If it's a wart then it's hpv and transmitted sexually? But it doesn't have the cauliflower look. Is it just a pimple? Can pimple appear there?

It's 2 weeks from the sexual encounter and people (statistics) say if you get acute hiv symptoms, it's from 2-4 weeks post exposure. And that's why I am so worried.
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  1. We'll SayNovember 26, 2013 at 3:51 AM

    Jesus christ, you seriously seriously need help. That's all I can say.

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  2. AidenNovember 26, 2013 at 5:45 PM

    Could be just a pimple. And yes, pimples can appear anywhere.

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  3. WilliamNovember 28, 2013 at 12:38 AM

    Would it be awkward to get a friend look at it? XD

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