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House party

It's titled the house party simply because it's like the only 'highlight' for the day.

It's funny how a person's mood can change from good to bad and back to ok just in one day.

Got a muffin and coffee ($7) and 'sunbathed' for 30 mins on the balcony. (Good mood)

Realising that my throat is still dry and feels a little bit inflamed, and checking my throat using a mirror and the smartphone torch light made me feel worried and depressed.

Until now, after having vitamin C and drinking lots of water and a nap, I can still feel like I may get a sore throat anytime, and it can be a symptom and I am dead.

And then, I was thinking of excuses to not going to the party tonight because I was feeling so emo.

So it's a house party. It's just at my house, the place that I am living. Housemates have been confirming my attendance with me. And I have been saying yes. If I don't go, people would start saying I am being aloof and all that. It's true, because I have been pretty much 'aloof' and locking myself in my room this year.

So I went. Because there were about 20 of us, I kinda had to put on a smiling face because at any point, someone might be looking at me so I couldn't let them see my depressed face, even for just a few seconds.

Probably faking a smile, or laughing at not so funny jokes helped too.

At least, it helped to take some of my emo time away.

Ok, I need to go to bed soon. I need to have a good rest.

Thursday and Friday I will be working at the cafe. Though only for a few hours each day, it can be tiring as I have to keep standing all the time.

There's this free movie screening on Together, a HIV-related Chinese film tomorrow night. If I am feeling ok and not too tired I think I should go. There will be a hiv positive speaker too.

And then Friday night, after work, I will be meeting up with Ben. And there will be a mass at his church for the World Aids day.

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