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Ahh...I am so not productive today. 

Probably I slept late last night (2am, as I worked till quite late amending my work). 

Today, there was a house meeting at the place I live. Had to go coz it's 'compulsory', but anyway I had my laptop with me, didn't bother! 

Feeling stressed, and have been telling myself not to, because being stressful doesn't help a thing. 

Have also been telling myself that ' what's between me and success/completion, is myself.'

Hopefully tomorrow will be super duper productive. Two weeks to submission. 

Jay came over just now! I told him that I was tired and needed massage coz my neck felt like it was going to break. Too much staring at the computer. 

Bought myself a laptop stand, hopefully it will be delivered by tomorrow as promised. 

Oh, back to Jay. He brought me so much stuff! Like he was going to the temple! Haha..coz there were cakes & bread & biscotti that he baked, a 'kuih' that his mum bought, and a mandarin orange. Like the typical combo to go temple??

He also remembers that I told him my birthday is in June. But i refused to tell him exactly when coz I dun wan to expect a present or a cake or a surprise. I know I will be busy doing my thesis. I am not really someone who likes birthday celebrations. I dun wan him and others to feel obligated to treat me like a king on my birthday. 

So he brought me a slice of this watermelon cake from a famous pastry shop in Sydney. He said it's from his friend. And we had the cake together. More like being fed by him. 

And then there was massage by him. And cuddle. He was 'wet' dy if you know what and where I am talking about. But we were able to exercise self control, haha. 

I feel so loved. 

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