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Texted Jay yesterday afternoon and asked if he was still available for dinner. He asked me about it the night before but I said it would have to depend on my progress...

Didn't make much progress yesterday as sleep wasn't that good, slept too late I guess after my Happy Friday. 

Anyway, we went to this really nice place for dinner. Rump steak, Pork Belly. He always knows where to go and what to order. The food he ordered was always better than mine, and he picked the right places too..unlike me :( 

After dinner, we came back to my suburb and I brought him to this gelato place and we had a walk around the park. It wasn't too cold at night, as Sydney is unusually warm these few weeks at this time of the year. 

We went back into his car to chat a bit and then we adjourned to my room LOL. 

For the first time, we were naked in front of each other. For the first time, there were tongues involved. For the first time, we cum-ed. 

It was already 1.30 in the morning, and after shower and all that, it was already 2.30. 

I could fall asleep, but it wasn't refreshing. And for the whole day, I have this strange feeling. I don't know how to describe it. 

It's not that I am unhappy. Nor sad. I am pretty sure I dreamed about him last night. But couldn't remember anything about it. 

Progress was ...err ok today...I managed to get something done but still I didn't manage to complete everything i wanted to do. I am seeing my supervisor tomorrow. I told her that I wanted to get this part done too, but I couldn't. My mind is shutting down now. I am feeling tired. 

I don;t know if it's because of stress or what. But why am i not feeling 'excited' about it. Am I, subconsciously reminded of my past relationship? 

I can't really discuss this with Jay. Who would want to hear something like this. 'I am happy with you but not exactly...??!!' 
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