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Have you ever lost touch with someone you loved?

Was on the phone with Jay last night and I was telling him how guilty I felt for feeling horny, and how I shouldn't have watched porn a few days ago because that made me think about sex, guys all the time!

So he asked me to delete my porn! and after lengthy negotiation, he said it's ok for me to leave one and delete the rest. But I still couldn't see the point. As long as I have porn, and as long as I watch it, I feel horny, I masturbate, I feel guilty as I wasted time, and as I wasted energy that could be well spent on my thesis...

So I didn't delete the Masaki porns which I recently got addicted to. Don't you think Masaki is 'just right'? Not unrealistically hunky, but amazingly good at sex, especially the explosive jets at the end.

And I told him it's actually JackD that's distracting me. Coz when I feel bored, restless, distracted, I would look at JackD, checking out Masaki-like guys in Japan!

So, he asked me to delete JackD. But I told him no, because I would delete some 'precious messages'. I was actually referring to Our messages la, (I think he should have been able to guess it correctly given his level of intelligence), but still he said those messages relate to the past so they are not important.

But, to me, they are precious, because they capture the first contact you made with someone important in your life.

Just like how I met my ex on Fridae. I still keep the messages.

Anyway, I deleted JackD, and all the other apps. But I took a screenshot of the first few messages we exchanged on JackD.

So I was suddenly reminded of my ex.

He must have changed his Whatsapp number ever since he left the country.

The missed call (international number) I received the other day must have been from him. Well, I called back, but no one picked up. Probably he changed his mind. Probably he wanted our contact to cease....


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  1. WilliamMay 22, 2014 at 1:20 AM

    Deleting porn is not realistic. LOL.

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  2. soul232May 22, 2014 at 3:00 PM

    Unless u disconnect ur internet connection, there's no point in deleting porn XD haha busy urself with something or with meeting him up then

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    1. untold stories May 23, 2014 at 11:46 PM

      I m actually quite busy enough already! thesis is killing me but human nature i guess...i m so ...err ....horny sometimes

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  3. AidenMay 22, 2014 at 5:03 PM

    Does deleting porn really work? I mean, you still have access to internet. I think forcing yourself to do something else could work. Although its easier said than done.

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    1. untold stories May 23, 2014 at 11:47 PM

      yes, getting porn downloaded is so much quicker nowadays!

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  4. Shadow WindMay 22, 2014 at 9:06 PM

    sometimes losing touch with someone you love is inevitable, given certain circumstances. = ( but wherever possible i still think its better if people can remain friends after everything.

    Deleting Jackd understandable, but why deleting porn hahaha, it's a basic human right lah! why feel guilty.

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    1. untold stories May 23, 2014 at 11:48 PM

      Yes... for sure... i hope I won't ever forget people who love me :)

      Human rights? I like that! lol

      Delete

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