Demons

There is just so much to write about..I don't know where to start.

On Thursday, I woke up with a slight feeling of headache. I actually made plan to visit a chinese doctor on Thursday so I wasn't that worried because the doctor would have more obvious symptoms to make a diagnosis.

Went to see a different doctor this time. The previous doctor at Tong Ren Tang was ok but I didn't want to spend so much on acupuncture and I wanted a second opinion.

The doctor this time wasn't that good at communicating. He wasn't able to give me a precise answer. He only said it's a bit of 'heatiness' and that's it. Prescribed me some chinese herbs and I had the shop to boil for me.

I can still feel a bit of headache now though it's better than Thursdsay. I can still feel the low grade fever. Eyes are not that dry though compared to few days ago.

I seriously don't know what's wrong with me!

I am so tired yet so stressed. I feel like I want to shout out loud. I feel like...I don't know.

Shouldn't have told my family about my sickness.

My aunt. She even suggested that, according to her 'sifu', it could be demonic or something! I am too tired to elaborate on it here.

My dad called me yesterday. He complained about his work, how unfairly he was treated, how disappointed he was and all that. And he said, 'i don't mind all these, as long as you are healthy' and 'now I can only hope that your younger sis will study well and get a good job'.

I felt really bad hearing all this. As i grow older, i know that being an adult is not easy, and being a parent is definitely way harder. He must be stressed and worried because of me. Plus, what my aunt said might have made him more worried though I kept telling him to stay away from my aunt and let nothing affect our faith in God.

I don't want him to be 'threatened' by this 'sifu'. This man is a demon himself.

Ok, since I talked about this, I will just write more here, so you can see the picture.

It's not buddhism. I don't know what it is. So, he claims that he's like the agent to 'the god'.

Ever since my aunt knew him, I can say the whole family got implicated. Emotionally and 'physically'.

It's so obviously weird because out of how many millions or billions of people on this earth, it seems like those who are connected to my aunt will become targets of demons.

And, my aunt would bring them to see this 'sifu'. You don't have to pay a lot of money, according to my aunt.

Then you may start to believe that, oh, since this man is not after our money, then there's no point for him to lie right? Wrong.

I believe that there are demons in this world. There is God. Demons don't need and don't want your money. They want you to live in fear, they want you to turn away from God and believe in them.

Also, i believe demons have power too. They are not powerless. They can create havoc in your lives, they can make you feel sick (like voodoo), etc.

So, the 'trick' is, if this 'sifu' wants you to come to him, you will feel sick or you will encounter a lot of troubles in your life. Then, somehow, you know my aunt. And my aunt, a really kind and naive lady, would introduce you to this sifu, and then you are cured.

But then, once in a while, you will become sick again. Basically, you won't be freed. And most importantly, you shouldn't talk badly or be doubtful/suspicious about this 'dealing', because 'the god' may be angry and you will be in trouble.

Hence, no matter how hard I try to convince my aunt, analyse the situation to her that this is a vicious cycle. They make you sick, they make you come to them, and slowly, you will be controlled.

I told my aunt that I have my religion, that I don't need her to pray for me (with some donations to this sifu of course), but she refused to listen. What can I do? She thought she was doing something nice for me.