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Updates (for myself)

Though it's titled this way, you are still allowed to read it if you want to. 

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The past few days have been quite 'peaceful'. At least, on the surface. 

I had another test done yesterday and got the results today. It's all good and it's been 8 weeks. 

The counsellor said that when one is irrational, he will still try to rationalise his acts/thoughts and try to make them look rational to himself. I am not sure if this is what I've been doing. 

But as far as the test is concerned, there are a few reasons why I am still not 100 percent convinced. 

1. I had taken some traditional chinese medicine, on and off, for a about ten days or so in total, after 28 days post the unprotected oral incident. 

There were studies done and it was proven that some chinese herbs have anti-HIV properties. How much herbs to achieve the suppression, I don't know. 

2. I still have this feverish feeling, (37.3 with my own digital thermometer), tired/dry/warm eyes and have neck and shoulder pain. 

Symptoms? 

3. I don't know which HIV test the labs use exactly. Although they all offer 4th gen Antigen/Antibody test, the sensitivity is different for different test manufacturers (Abbott Architect, Abbott Axsym, Roche Combi PT, Greeenscreen, etc.) 

For instance, the result i received today, it's stated that Axsym was used. When I saw this, I immediately became 'not so convinced' because Asxym is actually an older version while Architect is the latest one by Abbott. 

I then went on to search for journals published on the evaluation of these different fourth gen assays. And then I used Excel to calculate the number of days needed, with the assumption that HIV cells replicate every 24 hours (1 cell turns into 2 cells, then 4 cells, then 8, 16, 32, 64, 128, 256, 512...). 

I don't know if my calculation/assumption  was correct. But it seems like 35 days should be really enough, even if there was just 1 copy of virus to begin with. 

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For the next few days, 

I will be taking the TCM i got from Tong Ren Tang. They were brewed and ready to drink. Hopefully it will make me feel better. But I guess, the main cause is the anxiety/worry so I will have to really calm down. 

Tonight, 

Will be meeting for a new friend for dinner. Medics student, in town for some placement today. He kept asking me last night if he could stay over, I said no of course. Don't want to give him/myself the chance to make things go too fast.

Yesterday, 

Met up with this friend, a dota friend I know from Jack'D. Can't say too much yet as I've only met him once and don't know him really well. But he's a nice guy i think, just not my type. Staying as friends is good actually. 








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