Birthday Party

Attended the birthday party of a friend today. 

Woke up by the alarm at 8.15 but fell back to sleep till 9.30. Bought a Lychee, Lime & Coconut muffin and a cup of flat white for breakfast. Talked to the housemates in the lounge room though I knew I was running late. That's me, always late. 

On the train, i saw a boy around the age of 7 or 8 with his granny. I enjoyed listening (eavesdropping) to their conversation. 

They had a magazine filled with different types of desserts for the upcoming Christmas I supposed. The boy was reminding his granny that she promised to buy him something from the EB store. The granny, of course, said that she had forgotten about the promise. 

This reminded me about my childhood. I am really fortunate to have had grandparents looking after me. And I could still remember the little sweet moments I spent with them vividly. They are the best grandparents. 

I wanted to tell the boy so much that please cherish your time with your granny, and love her as much as she loves you. 

The birthday party was good. Food, chats and board games. 

There were about 15 of us. Most of them came in pairs. I really envy those who were able to wrap their arms around their partners and rest their heads on their partners' shoulders. Sometimes I wondered if the person would ever appear. 

Surprisingly, while I watched these 'sweet' scenes, I wasn't thinking about my ex. I guess it's an improvement? 

I still think about him of course, especially at night, on my bed, as I hug my pillow and imagine that it was him, until I fall asleep. 

I am still worried/ confused about my health. 

I could feel the burning sensation when I peed. It was obvious. 

I don't know what to do, or who to tell. It's obvious this time. 

I've not had any sex for three months. My last urine test for Chlamydia and Gonorrhea came back negative and that was only a few weeks ago. 

Could it be other microorganisms that have been living in my urethra for some time? Such as Mycoplasma or other germs that are not routinely screened?

Or could it be that I got infected by the masseur's saliva?

Or could it be the fingering that has brought some bacteria living in my rectum to my dick? 

I am so confused. And I kinda know what those GPs/ sexual health nurses would say if I were to see them. I guess they would give me some antibiotics and say it must be NGU and they would say I think too much and HIV is not transmitted via saliva. But again, who can guarantee that?