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Media Action & Test

It's my first time participating in a 'media action'. Can't disclose too much here, but we were surrounded by reporters and cameras. Not sure if we made it to the TV news though.

Two days ago, David called me and asked if I would be interested to help out. My job was simple. I didn't have to speak out. I only had to hold a placard that said '[location] cares about affordable transport'. So there were about 20 of us, each holding a placard to represent different areas across NSW.

The whole thing only lasted for about 20 minutes. It was a fun experience though.

After the event, I lied  that I wanted to walk around the city. I actually made an appointment for a body check today.

It's been more than 3 months since the exposure. And the last test was done after 9 weeks. I want to be hundred percent certain, and I want to put this behind and move forward, without having to associate random symptoms i have with the exposure.

I went to a private practice this time, as opposed to free public sexual health clinics. But it was partially covered by Medicare (tests fully covered). The doctor, should be a gay, in his 40s, was a bit too long-winded with his attempt to build a good rapport with me.

I was feeling tired already, after having to wait for 20 mins even with an appointment. I just wanted to have the tests and leave. But he went on and on about what I am studying, etc...

Tried to take a nap when I reached home but just couldn't really fall into sleep. Still feeling tired throughout the evening. Didn't work on my research at all!

Had to listen to this horrible lady speak (she's totally like Umbridge in Harry Potter!) yesterday at the school.

Though everyone hated her the moment she opened her mouth, there were certain things that I thought were 'inspiring'.

Eg. what's the point of spending this year, if you can't get the top grade? Wouldn't it be better to stay at home and receive unemployment benefits?!! (WTF, it made me feel so stressed but it's kinda true)

And she did this calculation and informed us that in order to achieve that, we would have to spend at least 7-8 hours a day on our research project!

Obviously, I am not doing that today.

I have to change!! CHANGE!!!

Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day!


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