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Guardian Angel

I have just finished watching the 41-episode TVB drama, Triumph In the Skies 2.


Was feeling meh with it in the earlier episodes but the last episode really touched my heart.

Captain Cool had some quite meaningful thoughts towards the end of the show. About Guardian Angel.

It made me think, where is my Guardian Angel? Do I, Did I, or Will I have one?

Sometimes, it is not that straightforward.

Sometimes, you need that very moment to be certain about who is the right person.

Does it count when you long for someone's presence when you are in deep shit but then he's not there with you or he simply doesn't care?

My ex and I were 'together' for about a year. Time passed really quickly during that year. Although there were lots of arguments, and even heart-breaking moments, it was sweet, at least i think so.

It's been almost 6 months. Days passed rather quickly too.

I wonder if it is the effect of being depressed. There is simply nothing to look forward to. For the days or for life in general.

My parents, my aunt, my sisters asked if I have made travel plans for the end of the year.

A friend I met today asked what are my plans regarding uni, work, and life.

I really don't know.

I've been hiding, avoiding, denying. I know I need to stop doing this to myself. But I just couldn't.

I can be very chatty in front of people. I can even flirt, maybe, on Jack'D. But this is not what I used to be. It is really not.

I just checked my temperature, 37.4. Almost having a low grade fever.

What could it be???

I have had tests. It's been more than a month of feeling feverish.

The next appointment with McDreamy for results was scheduled for Wednesday. But I feel like calling tomorrow and ask if I could see him earlier.
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  1. WilliamSeptember 29, 2013 at 11:31 PM

    I've yet to watch that TVB series. Don't even think I watched the 1st.

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  2. Da Closet GuySeptember 30, 2013 at 9:10 PM

    Do you believe in the Law of Attraction?? Just wondering...

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    1. untold stories October 2, 2013 at 7:25 PM

      Hmm... yea to a certain extent..your point being??

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  3. thompsonboyOctober 3, 2013 at 9:00 PM

    Aiyo, so many things to look fwd to in life lar....tolong!

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