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5 more days to home

Spotted @ Kinokuniya Sydney 

5 more days to home!! 

Had lunch with some ex-uni mates today in the City. Had Teriyaki Fish with rice (with two slices of Salmon sashimi, piece of radish, bowl of miso soup, and salad) for $13.80. The teriyaki fish was quite nice, tasted fresh. 

Walked around the city afterwards. There's less people in Sydney compared to last week which is a good thing. 

Before I went home, I went to pee and two guys, one on each end of the row of urinals, were playing with their dicks! I knew things like this were happening but rarely so obvious. I stood next to one of them, quickly finished my business and left. 

With 5 more days to home, the feeling is mixed. 

I miss seeing my family, miss spending time with them. I haven't been in my new house for more than 3 months (cumulatively). And my bedroom is still very new. 

But at the same time, I am worried that I will be worried. 

I have gotten my latest test result (done at 9.5 weeks post that sexual encounter). Theoretically, I know i should be fine. Tests were done at 4,5,6,8 weeks too. 

But it's the 'what-if' that's making me uncomfortable. With things on the the internet. There are so many things that are 'antiviral' on the internet. Things like lemon, grapes, Curcuma Longa (the yellow ginger) are antiviral. When you extract the juices of these things and drip it on the virus, it kills the virus in the test tube. 

But the effect of them on viruses, when you actually eat it, is not very well known. 

And thoughts like what if because I eat these food from time to time, and it reduces the not-to-be-named virus in my body, to a level that cannot be detected by the tests....

What if, the virus is kept at such a low level that antibodies are not being made, hence the tests are still non-reactive? 

I know, with the increased sensitivity of the P24 and antibody components of the test, and number of test of I had, and the constant praying, I shouldn't let myself to be overwhelmed with all these extreme examples of what could go wrong. 

And I have been praying all these while, for forgiveness, for peace. And hopefully that my prayers will be answered. I know they will. And that this trip back home will be a warm, safe, and peaceful one. 

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  1. Da Closet GuyJanuary 18, 2014 at 8:44 PM

    What's the worst case that will happen if what you "wish" come true?? Will you still continue to life a quality life even something you don't wish to happen happens?? Probably you should concentrate in things that are really happening now in your life, especially the good things. Minimize your worries, plan for the worst but always hope for the best.

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    1. untold stories January 18, 2014 at 9:46 PM

      I know...Will try to bear that in mind. Good to hear from you again:)

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  2. Naughty PrinceJanuary 19, 2014 at 1:04 AM

    everything will be fine.... dun worry...
    hugs

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