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If you fail to plan

If you fail to plan, you are planning to fail.

AND, be mindful of the moment, where you are at, and what you are doing.

There are the two things that I picked up yesterday, during a 'group activity' at the place I live.

Like I've said before, I was kinda different compared to how I am now. Especially during Form 4 and Form 5, I was very determined to be the best student. I am constantly making plans to study and I felt good after doing the revisions. Sometimes, my mum would walk past my room and stood just outside the door, quietly observing me studying, and probably feeling proud of how hardworking her son was.

Also, be mindful of the present. Think about why am I here (why am I in Australia? Why am i living in this accommodation? How long have I been here? What is the time now? Eh, I am typing out a blog post now...etc)

Think about the goals in the short term (complete my degree), in the medium term (where to settle down, what to do...)

In 2013 at least, I wasn't doing all these. Seriously, I was just...surviving i guess. Certainly, some plans were made. Like where to have lunch/dinner, how to inform my supervisor that I needed a break, how to bring my family around when they were here, etc.

But nothing more than that.

Nothing 'ambitious'. Nothing about personal development or career goals.

And think about this analogy.

If I am not wearing my specs, the imperfections of my face would appear just ok in front of the mirror. It will be blurry, but I don't want to be confronted with the 'problems'. As long as there is no obvious smudge, it's ok.

That was how I lived in 2013.

During this period of transition, where I am graduating soon, I can't continue to live like that.

There are many decisions to be made, including a very urgent one, a decision to do my best to get the best results possible. Then, there will be decisions about job, city to settle in, where to rent a room/apartment....

Really, I have to face it. I must be able to complete some tasks everyday. It has to be a step forward, regardless of how big the step is.

Yes, I got to tell myself. I am here, for a purpose. Why have I travelled so far from home? Do not take things for granted.

Yes, I need to achieve more tomorrow.

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  1. My computer is usually put on mute, but I had just finished watching a clip on YouTube.

    And then... 'Say Something' played as I clicked on your blog read along this post. Sweet surprise. They rhythm of the song coupled with the message in your writing created a sentimental moment that I didn't expect.

    Wouldn't go into introducing myself as I am an outcast amongst gays. But just thank you, and may God bless you.

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