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Jay: Hi there (21 March 2014, 10:30:34pm )

That was the very first point of contact. Two days later, we moved over to WhatsApp. We have been out for two times.

He is different in many ways. And he didn't strike me as a super hot guy.

He asked me to describe myself with 3 words. So I replied, 'family oriented, forgiving, anxious'. How many gays would care to ask?

He is 'easy going, independent, and adventurous'.

The first time we met, was in the city. He came straight after work. It wasn't hard or awkward for us to chat when we first met up face to face, as we had talked quite a bit on WhatsApp.

Dinner was at a Chinese place. Neither of us had tried the food there. No pictures but we had eggplants and kimchi pork as far as I can remember. I actually can't remember where the restaurant is now, probably I was too nervous to notice? Haha.  We just talked and talked and talked. No love at first sight, at least from my part.

And then we went to a dessert place. Apparently, according to him, I told him a lot about me, my experience. I didn't tell him everything of course, but I just trusted him maybe?

He drove to my place on Sunday night and we went for dessert, as he already had dinner plan with his family earlier on. The dessert was so dessert. It was so so sweet. Basically the base is made up ground peanuts mixed with sugar. And topped by two balls of ice cream, two balls of banana in fried dough (kinda like the Malay kuih) and cream.



Well, again, it's not about the food. We just talked. The environment was pretty hostile too. We were seated quite closely with another table. The background music was so loud. And yes, we were shouting to each other.

He didn't leave immediately after he sent me home. We were again talking in the car, as we weren't able to converse properly in the previous setting.

It was at that MOMENT, that I found him PRETTY ATTRACTIVE. I can't pinpoint why, it's the way he turned and looked at me, it's how I like to see him on the driver's seat, he looked slightly different when he was on the driver's seat and...erm..how comfortable I felt when I was with him.

I think I like him a little.

But now I am thinking, is it because I fall in love too easily??

He's kinda unsure about his sexuality. He could be a bi? What if i got hurt? What if, as he has never gotten into a relationship, he got 'misled' by me and later realised that we shouldn't be together?

I am not even thinking so much about sex at all.

I look forward to receiving his texts. And sometimes, I don't know if I am sending him too many texts, more than what a friend should send.





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  1. AdrianApril 11, 2014 at 2:42 AM

    Seems like there's a possibility? But do take it slowly. I guess texting slightly more is okay :)

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    1. untold stories April 13, 2014 at 7:12 PM

      yes...it's possible..but dun want to set the expectations too high

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