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Confused!!

Thursday.

Woke up this morning and was welcomed by the warmth of the sun that shone through the window, but I wasn't in the mood to appreciate much of it.

I can now see more obvious signs that something is wrong. The original bump (raised, almost pimple-like, painless) that is 1-2cm away from the butt hole is not growing bigger, actually it looks like it's getting smaller.

But the other tiny red dots (just slightly raised) are getting more obvious. They are not very big but definitely more noticeable now. When I tried to touch them, I couldn't feel anything, no pain no itch. I can also see them in more places now (area between scrotum and butt hole).

For the original bump, I treated it with 100% tea tree oil last week for a couple of days. And because I noticed that even the skin surrounding the bump started to peel, I decided to stop for a while.

And then, I sensed itchiness, and then I saw the other tiny red dots.

I started to treat the tiny red dots with tea tree oil, maybe for two days, then stopped, because I had decided to see a doctor and didn't want to cause any unwanted effects that could confuse the doctor.

Also, when I tried using tea tree oil to treat the other tiny dots, I applied some on the shaft of my dick and my ball too, as I thought it could prevent whatever virus from spreading to my dick and ball.

But I guess probably I applied too much, and my skin is getting burned by the tea tree oil. For the past two days, part of my ball was actually so red and inflamed and itchy ( i suspect it's itchy because it's inflamed and dry!)

And last night, I had the worst itch that prevented me from going to bed! It was the area between my ball and my butt hole.

I kept thinking, could it be that the virus is spreading hence it's itchy? Or is it because of eczema? (the area below my ball and between my ball to butt hole is kinda 'eczematic', it can be dry and itchy, since many years ago).

I didn't know what to do and it was so itchy I couldn't sleep!

I had no choice but to use tea tree oil to the area. Burning is better than itching, that's what I thought!

I couldn't sleep till 5,30am and woke up at 9.30 to prepare myself for work.

I will be seeing the doctor (hopefully she's smart) tomorrow at 9.30, then still have work after that.

According to my research, genital warts are almost not noticeable most of the time because it's not painful, and not very itchy. I am confused. Could the intense itch that I experienced be due to the Problem itself or was it because my skin is dry and inflamed because of the tea tree oil?

I checked HSV (herpes simplex virus). It can be itchy AND painful. But the bumps i have are not painful!

So what is happening!!!
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