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My week has been...

It's been a week since my last post! The week has passed by so quickly..Actually I am quite glad that it did.

Nothing really exciting has happened really.

I've been going to the gym on a more regular basis and my housemates have started to joke about it whenever they saw me leaving for the gym.

During the week, I visited the community library just 200 meters away from home. Becoming a member is free and one is allowed to borrow up to 40 items.

The collection there was surprisingly exhaustive though it's just a community library. I tried looking up for books that I had bought/read recently (Gaysia by Benjamin Law, Exposure by Michael Woodford) and they had them.

I haven't been reading a lot (fictional books I mean) and it's been a really long time since I stepped into a library looking for a book to read for pleasure. I didn't know where to start. There were so many racks and shelves and with only the spines of the books displayed, I found it really hard to look for something that I might like.

I had to tilt my head so that my vision was 90 degree clockwise so that I could at least see the titles and the authors of the books.

As I'm not a big consumer of fictional books, I only know a few famous authors like John Grisham, J.K.Rowling, Enid Blyton, etc. I went to one of the computers there and searched for John Grisham's books and finally I borrowed The Litigators. Still reading it...

When it comes to dates, I have a few that I can 'pursue' but I am trying not to force it. Also, I know it's not quite right and probably unfair to stereotype, but I really have a thing (probably more) to say about Chinese guys (Chinese nationals/ Migrants from China).

(After all this is my blog/my space I can write whatever I want right?)

Firstly, their english. No matter how many years they have been living here, their Chinese accent is still so strong (very Cina and it's a big turnoff actually).

Secondly, they are very Not romantic. As a result of this, there is always zero chemistry and the atmosphere is always rather awkward. To call them friends, we didn't have that many common topics and I alwayssss had to think of something to say to make it less awkward. To call them potential lovers, there simply wasn't any chemistry at all. They might have tried to impress, but always did so in ways that showcased their wealth? but nothing about being a gentleman, a lover. And most importantly, without the chemistry, even biceps of the size of my quads didn't have much effect on me.

Having said that, I'm still very much into my fellow asian men. And to make it clear, ethnicity/nationality is not an issue for me. It's not what's on your birth certificate or passport that attracts me, but you.

Recently, there's this couple that kinda invited me to have fun with them (not an explicit invitation yet but i can sense that the invitation can come just anytime now). They are very good looking, with great bodies, etc. But I am kinda afraid that they will send me the official invitation.

Should I say no? I don't want to have sex and then start worrying about getting infected with STDs. And I know that after that hour or so of fun, I will have to go home alone, unsatisfied emotionally, while they can carry on with their lives as usual and still have the company of each other's.

I had a really really bad dinner just now. Went to a new Chinese restaurant nearby (not really new just that I had never bought anything there) and ordered my favourite sweet and sour pork. It tasted so badly, it's the worst sweet and sour pork I have ever had :( And i paid almost $15 for it (with rice).


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  1. Yay! A new post! It's nice reading another blogger's life. I like searching for books in a library and I don't mind to tilt my head to read the titles because the whole process is like searching for a treasure you don't know what you'll find, and you have finally found one that captures your interest, that feeling is just blissfully happy, don't you think so? :)

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    1. It's not easy! If one is superficial enough, like me, he can always quickly glanced through the tens of thousands of thumbnails on jackd or grindr by screening for huge pecs or six pack abs. But when it comes to books, how to be superficial and judge them by their covers? Haha

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