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Planning

Went to the sexual health clinic today for my 1 month post-PEP test.

Similar to another sexual health clinic, this clinic in the city is trialing the Uni Gold rapid test. It only tests for antibodies though, unlike the recently approved Alere Determine which incorporates both antigens and antibodies tests.

I hope I will be fine.

Also, had a session with the counselor today. It was therapeutic I believe, as at least there was someone listening to me as I tried to summarize what I did and how I felt for the past week, and some plans that I have.

I told the counselor that I am planning to apply for a course leave, to 'rest' for a semester. She kindly agreed to write a letter for me.

I have also taken a step by emailing by supervisor today and told her that I am planning to do this. Will be going to the university tomorrow and start to get the details about the application process. Hopefully, this will go smoothly. Once, it's been finalized, I will let my parents know.

I had a panic again this evening after I came out from the shower. I noticed a red patch on the left side of my torso. Again, I was afraid that it could be a symptom. Could it be the rash? I was so worried and scared. But after 2 hours or so, it went away. Could it be due to the hot water? I could only hope so.

So yea, that's my life at the moment. Uncertainties, worries, panics. I am really tired. And I hope I could take a short break.

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