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Rash? Tired...

I don't know how to describe how I feel now... 

It feels like the whole world is so quiet suddenly. Or maybe I am just tired. 

Had work in the restaurant today. 

Haven't slept well in the last few nights. 

Will have work tomorrow afternoon. 

Just after I finished dinner, I noticed this rash on my wrist. 


Two days ago I had some tiny red dots/ rash on my waist but that's disappeared now. 

Just as I thought I could be relieved of the fear for a few days, I saw this now. 

What if it doesn't fade away? What if... I dun even dare to think about it. 

The masseur spitted on my dick. What if??? 

I m worried, but I'm tired. I dozed off on my bed just now thinking about all these... 

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  1. WilliamNovember 6, 2013 at 1:54 AM

    You went for a dick massage?

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    1. untold stories November 6, 2013 at 12:13 PM

      It was not intended to be one...see here http://untoldstories90.blogspot.com.au/2013/10/been-more-than-3-months.html

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  2. We'll SayNovember 7, 2013 at 4:25 AM

    Okay.... now I really really don't mean to be harsh, but after reading all of your other posts, you really really have to get your fucking ACT together, seriously. YOU CANNOT HAVE GOTTEN ANYTHING without penetration or blood contact with another person whatsoever.

    You have got to fucking stop this SHIT. it's honestly utter bullshit. Do you actually know what getting an STD, HIV or AIDS is???? You will be weak, blood counts low, you will actually start dying because your immune system doesn't work anymore.

    You are getting a rash and it stings to pee a little. So what?? Your body is just changing, growing. Don't let it psychologically make you sick. You are not.

    Go into the wards and asks the nurses to really show you what people with HIV and AIDS are suffering from and then you'll see.

    You have to seriously stop this crap. the more I read about your worries about something that is NONE-EXISTENT, the more it turns me off.

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    1. untold stories November 7, 2013 at 12:52 PM

      Well I understand what you are saying..at times i find myself being really irrational. But then again, it's what they (sexual health nurses/doctors) said. A lot of people who are infected don't get any symptoms at all or symptoms that are so mild they didn't notice. Anyway, i know you meant :)

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    2. We'll SayNovember 7, 2013 at 4:37 PM

      Yes you are being irrational, but when doctors say people dont get any symptoms at all that is when you get tested, HIV testing takes only a second, if the doesn't show positive you can breathe a sigh of relieve and de-stress yourself.

      Trust me you are fine, no amount of guys who are infected with anything and spray their baby gravy all over you as much as 2 big bottles of water is going to do anything to you. Don't worry about it.

      Start living life, enjoy working, even though if it is in a restaurant, a lot of it is in your head.

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